Wednesday 16 December 2020

Winter Solstice 2020

 




Celestial Harmony


‘Great conjunction’ Saturn and Jupiter December 21

Closest alignment of largest planets in our solar system since 1623



October Haiku


This odd, even year

Date: 10102020

Delight in balance



Untitled (Hula)
10” h x 11” w

by Ruth Ann Howden 

Mixed Media on Paper




I’ve spent a lot of time this fall with Federico Fellini and Emily Dickinson. They have a lot to say about the mystery and absurdity of life.


Voice of the Moon, Fellini's last film from 1990, ends saying if we'd all be a bit more quiet we might hear something. 


My feeling is that writing is a form of listening. I write (listen) every day, but have very little to say. What I want to do is share some thoughts gleaned from my reading this year:


Charles Mackey, The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse

 “ Don’t measure how valuable you are by the way you are treated.”


I’ve wondered about the value of my art/life and am aware that a mass produced car (vintage or new) is more valuable than all the art I’ve ever produced.


But then one of my favorite New Yorker writers, Adam Gopnik, sees a kind of lesson in Van Gogh's fate. "It is the moral luck of making something that no one wants in the belief that someone someday will. It is a long shot in a society of sure things. But this moral luck of van Gogh remains at odds with our own liberal civilization that always, and usually intelligently, prefers compromise to courage."


Line from Fellini film “It is only curiosity that makes me get up in the morning.“ 


So I also get up and look for answers, which lead to more and more questions, and leads to delight in the mystery of it all. Remember to beware of answers you can’t question! 


American philosopher Eric Hoffer, “Propaganda does not deceive people; it merely helps them to deceive themselves.” It is a good reminder that propaganda often is more personal than we realize, and it might be one of the reasons it is so hard to recognize for many. (From Hyperallergic, online arts newsletter)


And then there is the wisdom of Marilynne Robinson in What Are We Doing Here, 2018, 

“Early American historiography is for the most part a toxic compound of cynicism and cliche, so false that it falsifies by implication the history of the western world. To create a history answerable to the truth would be a gift of clarity, sanity, and purpose. The great freedom of conscience would be its liberation from our own cynicism, conventionalism, and narrowness of vision.” 


And of course, James Baldwin, reminds us that the United States continues to be in chaos as long as it won’t face the truth of our past. He is certainly still relevant today, Black Lives Matter. Look up the Resistance Revival Chorus on YouTube – – they are inspiring. I love Ella’s Song, and they cover Woody Guthrie.


Getting back to Emily Dickinson, I highly recommend A Loaded Gun, Emily Dickinson for the 21st Century by Jerome Charyn, published 2016, an excellent book on her life and poetry. I chose to read it because it has the same title as a wonderful film made in 2002, Loaded Gun: Life Death and Dickinson, by Jim Wolpaw and Steve Gentile. A trailer can be viewed at:


https://youtu.be/IFVr03AqQrA


These lines are by Emily Dickinson


“The brain is wider than the sky“… “The brain is deeper than the sea. ..The brain is just the weight of God,/ For, lift them, pound for pound,/and they will differ, if they do,/as syllable from sound.” 






A few more (unusual) book notes:


Activist Odyssey by Silvia Hart Wright

2020 publication by Eugene Oregon author. After reading I went to put a review on Amazon but was rejected because I have not spent at least $50 on Amazon this year. I don’t intend to either. My books come from the library, friends, and Powell’s Books in Portland Oregon.


The Elements of Style by Strunk, White,  illustrated by Maira Kalyan, forward by Roger Angel ( E.B. Whites stepson). A delight, a gem, puts all how-to-write books to shame.


The Mere Wife by Maria Dahvana Headley

2018 — novel based on Beowulf - contemporary telling


Old In Art School by Nell Painter

2018 — history professor and author always wanted to paint; does so when retired. I was curious about her academic work and next read her textbook The History of White People


The Biggest Bluff by Maria Konnakova

2020 — starting with question of how much is luck and how much is skill, evolved into the depth of self knowledge and analysis of decision making


I started the year with  An American Sunrise by Joy Harjo, Poet Laureate of USA (member of Muskogee Creek Nation, and she plays saxophone too) — imaginative truth teller, musical and compelling, must read again and again! Here is a taste of her work:

“These lands aren’t our lands. These lands aren’t your lands. We are this land.”


Song 6.

Let ‘Em Eat Grass


What we speak always returns

With a spike of barbs

Or the sweet taste of berries in summer



And the last book I completed was Shakespeare in a Divided America by James Schapiro

2020 — analysis of Shakespeare Plays in America as a reflection of the culture wars going on.

Scholarly yet easy to read/follow; the importance of the play topics are relevant and cause intense partisan and political implications. Subtitle: what his plays tell us about our past and future.




Tuesday 18 August 2020

fall equinox 2020 - sunrise photos from Kaunakakai wharf

 We might agree this is today 




But I’m not sure.



Yesterday and someday are lost




The feeling of Monday is certainly gone



Monday was full of expectation, energy




Another day came and left




This day or that day




Having only the now, and forced



Meditation on impermanence.



what expectations 

from others, or from myself 

nothing / everything




Do I live by expectations – – even when nothing is expected of me, 

even when I expect nothing of myself, much less expect anything from the world


Lock-down closes paths

It seems there is only one way left

Leading directly to the end


Lessons learned from air travel:

1. During most of the flight, the plane is auto correcting to get back on course

2. If oxygen masks drop, put your own on first before attempting to help others

3. The exit may be behind you

4. It is a very small, beautiful world


Lessons learned from road trips:

1. Perfect time to sit with thoughts

2. Changes can come fast

3. Planning may or may not help

4. Movement seems faster closer to the ground


Lessons learned from walking:

1. Pay attention

2. When watching birds stop walking

3. The world changes every day

4. We are a part of the world


In  What Are We Doing Here? Essays by Marilynne Robinson, she wrote:
Early American historiography is for the most part a toxic compound of cynicism and cliche, so false that it falsifies by implication the history of the western world. To create a history answerable to the truth would be a gift of clarity, sanity, and purpose. The great freedom of conscience would be its Liberation from our own cynicism, conventionalism, and narrowness of vision. 

I’ve had a lot of time in the last six months to read and to think. And my only conclusion is that we collectively have made a terrible mess of things. I have also found there are a lot of brilliant minds out there and that gives hope for a positive outcome, but the odds are not good. We do not seem to learn the lessons. 

Thursday 18 June 2020

Summer Solstice 2020



untitled mixed media 30” x 22” (Mo‘o)

Poets Job Description 

Paint an iridescent metaphor, build magic with words.
Articulate, tell us what you mean.

Enough of this ho-hum, maybe this, maybe that.

Put on the tragic mask and have us all in tears.
Can you enrage us, move us to mob action? Any action . . .

Don the comic mask and proclaim the absurdity of life. When else can you strut and storm if not now? The leaders lie and lie about lying. Make us laugh as if it doesn’t matter.

Hold up the mirror, force us to acknowledge the mask we wear. Reflect our truth, positive or not. Make it okay to go on living. Reclaim our humanity.

Yours is an immense task, perhaps impossible.
The mask will help.


4 HAIKU

covid-19
Here, proof positive
no us/them division, all
interconnected 
 ****
a poem always says
slow down, wait, pay attention 
I want you to see
 ****
My long life only
mastered the mapping of my
own limitations 
 ****
Just change one letter —
when compromise is good
compromised not so
****


AOD — adventure of the day

(I ‘translated’ from youth to old age a poem published in December 30, 2019 New Yorker by Phyllis McGinley titled Portrait of a Girl with Comic Book)

77, it is no age at all.
It is nothing. 
At 77 you are invisible. At 77 
you have secrets from yourself
and friends you despise. 
You admit none of the terrors that you feel. 
Owning half a hundred masks but no disguises
At 77 you are nothing

AOD


June 13, 2020



Emily Dickinson knew about so much,
and she communicated her thoughts so well,
from her isolation she wrote — 

“Let us strive together to part with time more reluctantly, to watch the pinions of the fleeting moment until they are dim in the distance and the new coming moment claims our attention.”




Be Well, aloha

Saturday 14 March 2020

Vernal Equinox







sunrise Kupeke fish pond






The vernal equinox is officially March 19, 2020, but today March 14, 2020 in Hawaii, night and day are equal. The sun rose at 6:38 AM and set at 6:38 PM. Thus today, I will write my quarterly blog post.

First I need to take care of business:
My new address is PO Box 482139, Kaunakakai HI 96748
I have not moved, just a different box number

change comes slowly
on Moloka’i for sure
in cre men tal ly



My little home and I are well, but I’m very upset by Maui County closing our pool, well all the public pools. I need that exercise to keep fit. The forces of historic pandemic are not going to bend to my preferences. The state library has canceled all events, but remains open. I can cocoon through this with books and walking.

I started the year with a wonderful book of poetry, “An American Sunrise” by Joy Harjo, our current national poet laureate, and a member of the Muskogee Creek Nation from Oklahoma. If you like poetry be sure to read this. She also wrote “Crazy Brave”, her autobiography. It records a life of struggle and persistence. I have high regard for her and her work.


heron in harbor


I’ve read a number of books of personal struggles recently: “The Latehomecomer” by Kao Kalia Yang; “Girl, Woman, Other” by Bernardine Avaristo; “News of the World” by Paulette Jiles; “Death Is Hard Work” by Khalid Khalifa; “Kartography” by Kamila Shamsie. I’d recommend each and all. These books remind me of what an easy life I’ve had. I feel grateful and indebted. I am attempting to give back to the world with my art. It feels meager, but honest.

And if you like sci-fi check out N.K. Jemisin. I totally enjoyed her book of short stories “How Long ‘til Black Future Month?”


sunset Kaunakakai 


Last year I wrote this little poem

this May
may be my last May
or maybe not

Just playing around with words, but it’s been a good prompt to keep me working — both painting and writing. I did complete a short memoir, and currently working on a large (22” x 30”) painting.

Here is another of my poems, again, just playing around with words


NO WAY

Lead the way

get out of the way, 
show the way, 
my way, 
the only way, 
one way,
through way,
be the way, 
find a way, 
wrong way, 
in the way, 
see the way, 
highway, 
the long way,
the lonely way, 
on the way,
roadway, 
every which way,
walk away

this poem was waylaid





moonset Kaunakakai