Tuesday, 19 March 2024

Spring Equinox 2024

 



Feral Wise Woman - Ruth Ann Howden 

14" x 11"

Mixed Media painting using

handmade pigments & walnut ink




Inspired by Ellie Irons' book Feral Hues I mashed up some spotted orchid petals for a wonderful golden color (sorry my photo didn't capture it); then I used desert rose petals for the yellow green color; and purple sweet potato gave me the bluish green for this painting. I've often used walnut ink in my work and it is the perfect compliment to these subtle and transitory colors.


I'm experimenting with other plants to find a range of colors, and started next painting using these handmade pigments.




Custodian Haiku


Taking care of life

The thoughtful custodian 

Works in her own way





Custodians of our local Post office did a major cleanup, repainted and hopefully they will re-landscape the corner. One large tree was taken out. The little palm that would catch the early morning sun, had grown large, also gone.



I love my sunrise walks through town out to the wharf, for exercise and often an opportunity to catch a good photo like this one of our Library with a rainbow over it. 


And the play of the morning light, of another day, on the Goddess Hina next to our library.









Photo collage, February, 2024, Ruth Ann Howden


This image speaks to me of the structures that seem to hold our so-called civilization together; full of blocks and barbs - a maze that has no path in, nor out. 


I want to use it as a cover for a book. I wonder what might be inside.


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the game of life


We dive, most of us head first

into this confusing mass of energy and

try following the many conflicting instructions

We study and debate the ancient, obscure rules


There are games of physical endurance 

games of chance and games of skill -

physical skill and mental skill - 

most requiring teamwork

Or one toss of the dice might 

end our game in disaster


Maybe the game is one where we excel 

maybe not - the deck was stacked either way

But it's said we have free choice and 

it's all so very confusing, oft-times not even knowing 

what game we're in or how it's scored


Perhaps it's best just to sit on the sidelines 

try to ignore it all, some of us practice not seeing 

or become a serial player of many games

My only goal is to enjoy the roller coaster ride  

Win or lose, we're all equal at the finish line



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Regressive Reality of Old Age


I left my knee in 

the mirror looking like a 

carved, wide-eye owl



A dragon recessed into a stone wall or cliff face 

appeared to be carved in stone, but very slowly 

I could see it's shallow breathing


My eyes are growing weaker, but the imagination is growing stronger. This could be a prompt for a short story, I've never written about dragons . . . .















In memory of Nelson James Puailihau, Jr.

September 27, 1960 - February 8, 2024


Although I only knew Nelson in passing, short greetings, in town or on the bus, he always radiated a joyfulness, never failed to make me smile. A unique being, he is missed.

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Although it is late to mention, I also miss the hotdog vendor in front of the import store. He died sometime during Covid lock down. I had never interacted with him, as I don't eat meat, but his presence on the street was reassuring.  Somehow we each find a way to make a living by supplying others with what they need; even if it is a humble hotdog. We all need everyone else to weave this amazing experience of life.


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Thank you for reading my blog. Emailed comments are always welcome and updates on what you're doing are most appreciated! 


I have a new sign off for my daily journal that I'll also use as my blog sign off


          I now give my attention to the rare gift of another day.












     











Monday, 18 December 2023

Winter Solstice 2023

 

POP QUIZ:

What are we personally custodians of?


What would planetary, nonbinary citizenship look like?


What if we start by being civil to each other?


Could we agree that we have obligations as well as rights?






Untitled — (Components for Explosive Words)

MixedMedia on Paper

October 2023 — 11” x 14” 

Ruth Ann Howden 




Haiku from Painting:


Assemble with care 

components for explosive 

words - use with intent





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Night Heron at dawn on WWII Navy pilings




Course correction: 

Human error can 

be better than perfection,

 creating in delight

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Thank Mother Earth for


stirring life from stardust, for


loving Father Sky


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Mandatory overtime: two haiku required



Overtime has been 

my placeholder refining

possibilities 



Resist stagnation

change gracefully every day

pivot joyfully 


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SNIPPET OF MEMORY:


early childhood book of hen asking for help to plant, tend, harvest, mill the grain, make the bread - no one would help, but when bread was baked they all wanted to eat it. 


Did the hen share the bread? 


As I recall she did not share, endorsing the concept of ownership/individualism; perhaps setting off an us/hen division with wild conspiracy theories and accusations. 


Could the hen have shared what little she had and convinced them that if they all pitch in next season they'll be able to produce enough for everyone? 


Alternative scenarios for second year —as another year always appears —if they work together producing great abundance.


And possible outcomes: 

>as hen supervises, she determines minimum share for others and claims excess to profit as it was her idea? 

>Or after equitable sharing they decide together what to do with excess?

>Do they give extra seeds to neighbors so they could also thrive? 

>Or maybe an investment in robots to do the labor (new slave economy - they don't have to be fed or housed, just maintained and stored)? 


Greedism or Community? Nothing is that black and white - I want to explore all the amazing and subtle variations possible, all those unique shades of gray that humans can devise.




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Books I Recommend:


Feral Hues by Ellie Irons - this is actually a guide to painting with weeds, a 2023 limited edition. For additional information and resources: https://ellieirons.com/ feralhues


The Bill of Obligations by Richard Haass - subtitled 10 habits of good citizens, also a 2023 publication placing obligations on the same footing as rights as a way to heal our divisions and save our democracy. This is a short, easy read and makes good sense. "for the record, there are no alternative facts, just facts and misstatements."


Tom Lake by Ann Patchett —this should be read along with Thornton Wilder's Our Town. It is a lovely meditation on what matters in life and paying attention to everything including the choices we make.


The House of Doors by Tan Twan Eng

my all-time favorite historical fiction set in Malaysia early 20th century.


The Properties of Perpetual Light by Julian Aguon

Poetry and essays—second reading was even better. This is someone I wish to follow both as a poet and an environmentalist/social justice lawyer. He's from Guam and is working to protect the rights of people whose islands are drowning due to the climate crisis.


Seedfolks by Paul Fleischman

- told through short monologues; the spontaneous creation of a community garden and the forms of healing it brings. Gifted to me and such a treat!


Humanly Possible by Sarah Bakewell

Subtitle—700 years of humanist free thinking, inquiry, and hope

A serious read in philosophy, put me to sleep a number of times. I'll share the ending in case you don't get to it:


Happiness is the only good.

The time to be happy is now.

The Place to be happy is here.

The way to be happy is to make others so.         Robert G. Ingersoll


Then Bakewell concludes, "It sounds simple; it sounds easy. But it will take all the ingenuity we can muster."


Unsheltered by Barbara Kingsolver

—her novels are always amazing, don't miss this one


The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating by Elisabeth Tova Bailey

— memoir of a long viral illness. Starts with a compelling prologue on how she contracted a rare virus, then goes into a long meditative essay on solitude



I could go on, but there are way too many great books out there. 

I wish for you time to enjoy a good read, and be sure to thank your local librarian! 


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 It is not antisemitic to critique the state of Israel,  to stand up for the rights of over 2 million starving people living in a war zone they can't escape from,  almost 7,000 children have been killed - the population of Moloka'i is just over that.      (I'm  standing in the middle, under the flag, but turned looking at the baby)